what is the meaning of a 'friend' for you?

 

friends are so important.

 

even they might not always with you

they might be distant from you

 

but

our relationship is so true

 

...

 

 

arghh

 

i am blur

 

...

 

no study mood.

 

...

 

and

 

i wish i can go back too

 

...

 

whitening myself **

just finished my first exam

commercial law

which i was so afraid of

hah

now finally overrrrrrr

 

and it was easy

i think

 

but still hope

wish .. i could write down all appropriate answers

and points

that tutor wants

 

god

help me

 

i like commercial law

and i want to pass

just PASS

 

tomolo is the last day of this trimester

this means .. exam is coming soon

 

and ..

gosh

im sick

 

maybe it's too cold ..

 

 

felicia, ah chia and lucy

happy birthday

 

today is my lovely friday !!!

 

woohoo

 

going to hong kong bbq later ..

 

hahaha

 

and ..

 

next week is my last week of this trimester ...

 

exam is coming soon

 

i love all of you ...

 

take care ya

 

especially those who are going back home soon

 

have a safe and happy journey

 

buy sth for me

 

haha

这个分享其实我前两个礼拜就想和你们说了。。

 

那天

一样的自己一个人在操场跑步

很开心的

那是我第一次

一次过没有停下来的跑完一整圈

那也是我第一次深深觉得没有什么是不可能的

只要你有毅力

你认为不可能的都会成为可能的

 

跑完了

天也黑了

本来很多小孩，大人，狗狗

后来慢慢的都走完了

只剩下几个还在跑步的人

 

我很累

可是很开心的坐在playground的秋千上

上一次荡秋千很像是很久以前一样

 

自己一个人荡

让我想到很久以前

我们初中做科学project时

在洁茜家

然后我们还去到sacred heard high school那里跟securityguard讨大红花的那一次

我们还去洁茜家附近的playground

我看到她荡秋千荡得很高

每个人都很惊讶

都在说：够了够了。。很高耶

我们都觉得很恐怖

因为她荡得可以转一个圈了

真的很高

 

我就在想

我从来都没有荡过这样高

从小大家都会说这样不可以那样不可以

去操场玩

我记得每次都阿公带

每次他都会说：不要爬太高

他都会在旁边看着我和我弟玩

 

你们记得有一种是好像格子，铁的，我们可以在那里爬上爬下，钻来钻去的

我记得有一次

我爬到第二层我就尿出来了

因为每次阿公都只让我们怕第一层

那一次是我想要突破自我爬上第二层

但是我爬上去后

往下看我就觉得很高很高

比我每次怕的第一层高很多

然后一怕

就尿出来了

 

我有时候就在想

我很常都不太会玩

什么都好

小时候都不怎么想跟朋友们玩

因为他们都跑很快

他们玩那个我说的格子的

他们的动作都比我敏捷

 

就连长大了

我发现我还不会赌博

我还不会玩cardgames

我还不会打保龄球

连第一次进保龄球场也是在这里

电影院也没进过几次

那种游戏机我也都不会玩

 

别人都会说

什么？你都不会哦

你都没玩过？

 

有时候别人都会觉得

哇。。你家人很严

什么都不肯你玩哦

 

但是

那一次

就我自己一个人跑完步荡秋千的那一次

我突然想到

 

阿公不让我爬到第二层

那是因为她怕我受伤

如果从第二层掉下来会很痛

 

我妈妈不让我去玩保龄球

是因为她知道那个场合很乱

很多混混

她不让我玩游戏机

因为那个会让人沉迷

 

很多的限制

其实都是用来保护我的

 

我很幸福

虽然我可能看过去没什么

但是我知道

其实我拥有的很多很多很多

 

 

 

 

just handed in my mark202 assignment ..

really damn ..

but anyway ..

just let it over  ....

 

do u guys know 'the kite runner'?

highly recommended ..

i was reading it in borders yesterday ..

u can see how do i enjoy my life ..

haha

 

exams is coming soon ..

17/6

25/6

26/6

 

may the god bless everything .. especially my exams .

i want all pass

^^

 

keep contact lar ..

i love you ~

哈哈

i just realised that ...

my blog looks like watermelon too ..

 

arghhhhhhh

i missed monet exhibition ..

do u all know him?

the artist!!!!!!

错过了~~

本来打算去的

结果不懂为什么

晃着晃着

最后都没去到

 

我最喜欢的画家！！！

我竟然没有去看他的画展

 

累

 

 

没什么

只是。。

觉得很久没有写东西了

然后也很懒惰做什么

最近真的很懒

 

erm

大家最近好像都不太好。。

 

然后

hey

家骏

我看到我在你的照片里

haha

红色衣服的

好惊讶

 

秋天到了

真好

天气凉了

衣服可以穿多了

还蛮好玩的

可以mix and match

哈哈

还有帽子

我的最爱

^^

 

我的西瓜头变哈密瓜头了

长长了。。

 

呵

 

天哪

第二年比第一年难很多

唉

我看我是死定了

 

想哭

那种感觉是。。就算我努力。。我也不会成功的

 

觉得我自己就好像在战场上拼命匍匐攀爬

只为了要生存下去一样。。

 

累

don ask me wat happen to my title

i just wanna do that

 

...

 

finished my coml test

which is kind of sucks

 

handed in my mark assignmentsss

don noe how's it going ..

 

...

 

ya

holidays is coming ..

after few busy weeks

always like that ..

 

...

 

today no working

boss said change to tomolo's night

ok lo

i don have class on thursday

so i think it might be alright

 

...

 

haizz

my dear coml law

i love u so much ..

but how dare u treat me like this

 

...

 

well

nth to say ..

 

...

 

good luck to all those having tests or assignments due

love ya

 

...

 

 

haizz

my dear assignment

can u be kind to me?

 

...

 

my brain seems like stop working ..

i cant have any ideas .

 

...

 

but fortunately

i have lu guang zhong's songs..

keep me in hyper mood ..

 

god please ..

help me

 

..

 

oh ya

this week got many things happen

lolz

 

a guy said he likes me ..

well .

it seems like im stil hot ya ( coz noone says that to me for a very long time)

but ..

i rejected him ..

yea u r right

not the time

and i have no feelings with you

sorry ..

 

and im keen on rejecting ppl

haha

 

...

 

oh ya

just remain me that .

i met a singaporean auntie when i came here in the airport

she was surprised that im a malaysian

lolz

she said i look like mix

and she thought i have lived in nz for a long time

lolz

happy happy

 

...

 

well .

fishy

i know u wana say i look more like a chinese( i meant the real chinese from china)

 

...

 

haizz

another hard night

 

...

 

god ..

please help me

i dont want to suffer from this for a long time

 

...

 

dead **

good morning everyone !!

 

oh ya

i have two assignments due nxt week

and another term test nxt week too

dammit

but i hope everything gonna be alright

 

...

 

miss u guys and gals ..

 

 

too big

haha

my face is so big

 

how's it?

look better now?

 

my friends always say i look so damn coz my hair is too long

 

and u know what

i like that korean saloon

 

but i think i look so stupid with this hairstyle

isnt it?

 

dad and mum

don worry that i will run out of money

im working now

so i might be alright

 

 

tell u guys ..

pods is so nice ..

i like it ..

 

i like to say " dont kill me " this recently ..

haha

 

...

 

ok ..

this morning was so windy

and i m just wearing a mini skirt ..

damn cold .. freezing when i walked down to uni ..

luckily it's a very shortcut .. so that i dont need to suffer from it for so long ..

 

...

 

and the day looks better now ..

sunshine ~

^^

 

...

 

erm ....

i need to help church ( my group) to pass flyers ..

dont noe whether i can do it or not ..

u know what ..

sometimes it's difficult to help god to do sth ..

it needs courage

imagine u r the only one standing aside, smiling to everyone who pass by and ask them to come to my church ..

erm ....

even more difficult than asking them for donation, what we did in our high school ..

coz at least u all were with me last time

but now im alone

doing that alone ..

 

and what will they think?

a little chinese gal

she's a christian

 

i don noe ..

i shouldnt feel like this

 

god

please be with me when im doing sth for u

im not strong enough

 

...

 

every time when i see aeroplane flying over my head ..

i feel like .. i wanna go home ..

haizz

home is the place where your heart is

that's true

but this is what i had decided

i decided this way ..

leaving home

experience an absolute different life in a strangers' country

this is what many ppl wish to

but im here

im the lucky one isnt it?

i should hold tight my chance

this is my chance ...

 

but ..

friends cant compared with family ..

it's different ...

 

...

 

when i was studying just now ..

i keep thinking of what should i buy when im going back home ..

 

but im still not sure whether im going back or not ..

this is ... so ... sad ...

 

i want to go back

i want to see my family

but i dont want to fail papers too

 

...

 

ok well

many ppl fight against my previous blog ..

well

i changed it

if i have that much money

i will leave it for nxt year

that's my fees .. !!

and if i can afford it

i will buy a return ticket

back home on june ..

 

...

 

ok

hope u guys enjoy ur day ..

and see ya tonight

 

...

 

ya .. u r right ..

today is tuesday ..

 

...

 

luckily today seems to be a very good day ..

hope it wont be too windy ..

at least now i can see the sunshine all the places ..

 

...

 

im wondering if i wanna move out nxt trimester ,,,

coz my roommate is going to england ( exchange programme)

 

...

 

my friend ...

i was shocked when i knew that she bought a new car .. u know what .. a branded new car ..

for about $20000 ( twenty thuosand nz dollars)

oh my godness

dont u always say that u r poor ..?

but now u willing to spend that money just for CONVENIENCE

sucks man

that is my tuition fees for the whole year !!!

 

well i know ..

this is very lots more cheaper than buying car in Malaysia ..

but ...

u r not staying here for long ..

and the price will drop if u gonna sell it then ..

if i have that much money

i would rather buy diamond ..

at least im sure i will get more returns back ..

 

well

maybe it's me i cant understand ..

or maybe bcoz of the jealousity

 

but i think it's not worthy to do that

 

and the parking feees in wellington

gossh

u know how expensive it is?

 

man ..

CONVENIENT

if u wanna say that ..

im the one who need it the most !!

 

...

 

ok

stop that topic

makes me angry nia ..

 

...

 

erm ...

thanks guys for ur comments ..

 

...

 

oohhhh

im not sure whether im going back

or stay for summer courses ...

 

haizz

 

...

 

" something happen for reasons .. u must believe it .."

this is what i saw on a very cute note book

it's right ..

 

...

 

see ya guys on msn

 

have a nice day

 

love ya all ...

 

...

 

the end

im now major in marketing and commercial law ..

woohooo

escaped from management !!

haha

 

.....

 

im now in nz .. ( came back here finally ..)

but there is nothiing to make me proud of it ..

coz my life is just like that ..

one i found is .. second year.. is just like that ..

haha

maybe it's only first week of uni ..

and i havent buy my txtbooks yet

so i dont have any refrences to go on ..

 

anyway

hope that everything will go fine ..

 

god bless me!

 

...

 

oh ya

sth need to celebrate!

there are almost ten malaysian in my hall now ..

haha

one of them is also from sarawak

yey

but she is an indian .. i think .. but not dark enough to be an indian ..

 

...

 

erm ...

i heard that teck hui, leh ping and welister are going travel togetherr ..

erm ..

so nice ..

 

im still not sure whether im going back this year end ..

coz i still have to take more 2 200level papers, 6 300level papers to meet 360 points ..

 

erm ..

so ..

god bless again ~

 

...

 

miss home sometimes..

but feel better  this time ..

( oh no ... second year liao lor .. should feel better lar ..)

 

hope that my family enjoy their life too ..

love ya .

 

...

 

keep contact .

 

 

feeling so nervous now ..

i have so many things to do today

although i have only one lecture at 1030 ..

renew visa

renew student id card

paying boarding fees

finding 2nd hand books ( and sell mine too)

...

haizz

home is the best place ~